No small victory05/27/2011 at 9:26 pm | Posted in baby sunshine, Motherhood | 12 Comments
Tags: bebe au lait nursing cover, breastfeeding, Motherhood, nursing baby
I nursed in public for the very first time tonight.
Wait. Let me rephrase that.
I nursed successfully in public for the very first time ever.
Sophie had been sleeping soundly on my chest when Marc suggested we venture out to our favorite Italian joint for our first “party of four” experience. After a brief flash of “no, I can’t do this,” I jumped on board. Sophie was snoozing, after all. I’d just fed her. She’d be good to go for at least a couple of hours, right?
Just before our food arrived, I heard the little bellow from her carrier. And soon enough, she was red-faced and demanding to be fed.
Crap. My chest tightened and that familiar feeling of panic swept over me. The same one that plagued me nearly every day for the first four months of Lily’s life.
But then, determination.
I grabbed my nursing cover (thank goodness for Bebe Au Lait — far superior to any other cover I’ve tried), swapped seats with Lily so that my back was to the dining room and wiggled that baby up to my boob.
And she ate. Contentedly.
I glanced around nervously. No one had even batted an eye at us.
A deep breath. I unclenched my jaw and peeked back down at the baby.
Just then, her eyes opened and she stared straight into mine. A look that said, “Relax, Mom. We got this.”
I’m trying, little baby. I’m trying.